This morning, as I do every Wednesday at 8 am, I went to therapy. I am really dedicated to my healing practice in my life, and weekly therapy is a big part of what is helping me heal my heart, soul and mind. Some weeks are draining and hard. Other weeks are full of heart feelings and new insights. Some weeks are about anger and rage.
Today, we were talking about being creative. We played with sand from Sands Alive, we made water art on a cookie sheet and we discussed finger painting. I shared with her some hopes and dreams, and that I am attending a Creative Workshop in August. I feel ON FIRE with the need to create so many things!
Then she said a phrase I had not heard before: Soul Calling. Now, I must admit, I did not come up with that term.
My therapist just said it out loud. I looked at her and said, “wow, that was perfect!!” She said, “I don’t know, I just made it up.” We laughed. And then, my whole being came ALIVE and started to tingle. I felt magical and whimsical. I felt ready to do all the creative stuff I want to do all at once! I felt unstoppable!
This lead to some internal parts work around “creativity.” I believe we all have a part in us that truly is unstoppable and creative. A force within that wants to get out and PLAY and to be fully alive in our body. Mine is starting to show herself more and more and more. It is good. I like it.
And it scares me to death! What if I fail? What if no one wants to see my creative side? What if? What if? What if? That is the place in me that has held that creative part in check, “be careful, don’t go too far away or you might get rejected.” Ugh….
And, WHAT IF I SUCCEED AND FIND MY SOUL CALLING???!!! MAGIC WILL HAPPEN
What is your soul calling you to do? What is it that you have put on the back burner, top shelf, in a box, under a rock, hidden away, and waiting for you to return?
Mine is calling me to:
Teach. Create workshops. Do more Play Therapy. Create a space for women to become Soul (Survivors or Life’s Experience)©, to finger paint, to walk my dog, to go to Spain, to share on a stage about being all you can be, to ride a bike, to climb in trees, to find purpose in my body again, to play with Legos – everyday, to laugh without care, to dance in pubic, to move, to do yoga, to be interviewed on Podcasts, to tell people I love them – everyday, to not hide my light under a bushel anymore, and to just be my fullest, kindest, most beautiful, creative self. IT IS TIME!!
In Hamilton, there is a line that is playing in my brain loop – “There’s a Million Things I Haven’t Done….Just you wait! Just you wait!!” Yep….exactly.
So, on this Fourth of July day, what Soul Calling firework needs to explode from you?
I really want to know….comment….message me…..DM me….TELL ME YOUR WILDEST DREAMS. Let’s work on them together. And never forget……
Now, go, create stuff.